The First Time I Cheated

Is it cheating? I mean, really? We've both said that it's fine to play around on the side but I don't think either of us really expects the other to take advantage of it. I doubt that he will, he's always had a low sex drive, but I'm fine if he does. As for me, that's an entirely different story. I'm horny all the time and usually jerk off twice a day. My bar for who's fuckable is also a lot more flexible. I'm good with twinks and daddies and everything in between.

So if we're technically open, why do I feel guilty for sitting in my hotel room watching porn and wishing those cocks were in my mouth instead of on screen? My own seven inches has been constrained in my jeans for the better part of an hour. I haven't unzipped. It's not that I feel the urge to jerk off. That would certainly kill my lust but it wouldn't solve the problem. The problem is that I want to suck a cock.

I see the guy on the screen, hungrily slobbering over some other dudes thick shaft. I can tell he's in heaven by the urgency and enthusiasm of the blowjob and his own raging hard-on that's bouncing around while he's on his knees. Fuck, that looks like it tastes good.

Respect Yourself

I've noticed a few ads on grindr where the user takes on a persona of ...classiness? "Not looking for hook-ups. I respect myself, you should too." "Respect your body." Somehow these users seem to think that being a slut and servicing cock is NOT respecting your body or yourself?

What the fuck?

That's exactly what I'm doing when I'm getting fucked or gagging on a big dick. A new, different big dick from the night before. A dick that's attached to a stranger. I am listening to my body and it's desires. I am respecting my sexual urges and playing them out. I respect myself enough to not deny myself the pleasure I naturally crave.

So. Yeah. Respect yourself.